False illusions
Have been very busy for a few days with work and other things. Have been sleeping and actually found time to go out for dinner with someone who I owe so much too. xx
I am still very angry with no sign of it lessening, I doubt that it will ever go away fully. I am struggling to understand why not one person in my immediate family spoke out for me, or at least offered consolation that they believed in me. They knew the facts!
I guess that the sadness of the decisions that my immediate family (one of my children) have taken on my behalf will live with me always. Hurt, anger and determination will get me through this and on to better people. People who do know me for who I truly am, not just paying lip service to their own ends, or gains.
The other part of this is that when a family member takes an action that is contrary to family unity, such as in my case, they force all other family members to live with the consequences of their action. It is not just the immediate aftermath, but very real consequences for the rest of their lives. I find that hard and I find people who behave in this manner to be selfish, of weak character and to have a complete disregard of others.
Anyone of my family who doubts my word that I will not forgive those involved, or those that stood conveniently by when they knew the facts, need to urgently re-think and get a reality check. They clearly do not know me, I would take my own life before that happened!
Family life is a funny thing, you get married, yearn to start a family and have children. You nurture, teach and protect your children as they grow, until such times as the children can contribute and be an equal member of the family. You expect them to fight for the family unity, family values and family members equally and fairly, after all it is their family?
I guess it just shows that sometimes we work towards an illusion! Perhaps that is the great lesson of life, we constantly seem to be working towards something that is never quite there for us! When we actually need it, the terms have changed. Kind of like a pension!
A family!, A principle!, A Country!, A religion! – Are they no more than false illusions?
I feel another verse coming on.
A family is a haven that protects us as we grow
A principle is a value we have been taught, therefore know
A country is a mass of land, a symbol, a flag as well
A religion is a problem that can take us all to hell!
A family is a haven that protects us as we grow
A principle is a value we have been taught, therefore know
Honesty is a given, for a family to stay well
A lie is a problem that will take that family to hell!
Don’t know which one I like best, so will leave as is.
